Ready Summer!!

Random thoughts going through this brain of mine!

Starting our first week of summer break - kind of nice not having a morning routine of rushing Big J out the door for preschool. I will probably regret saying that in a few days when his penchant for bothering his little brother gets on my last nerve! But I will remind myself to savor these moments as a mother of little ones. We are never guaranteed of future happiness and joy - so I will take the joy of today!

I watched "Farrah's Story" last night on tv. I taped it from at least a couple of months ago. It was the story of Farrah Fawcett. I didn't realize she has cancer. She has chronicled her journey since finding out about her cancer in 2006. It was pretty sad, naturally. I think it makes me the saddest when people have a misguided notion about what God is like. I don't have all of the answers . . . . but when someone says that "God doesn't have time to answer your prayers", that really is frustrating to me. At any rate, I guess I was drawn to watching it because I was curious about her. I think she's rather brave to tape as much as she did. She really did let the camera see her at her worst - bald, throwing up, and all. I think her mission was to let the world know that her type of cancer needs more research funding.

Another topic on my mind: Judgmentalism. Now that's a can of worms! I think I'm about to lose my religion over it. It can totally yank my chain. I've seen it, done it, and been a victim of it. And then where do you draw the line: judgmentalism vs. having an opinion? I had that thrown in my face recently. Let's just say that I'm taking a little sabbatical from my responsibilities from church, and it didn't go over well with some people. I also don't appreciate the feeling of feeling unsupported. It makes me close myself up. I know God wants us in close fellowship with others, but when we open ourselves up . . . then get "judged" . . . back into my cave I go! Is this a crazy cycle, or what!!

So that was a soapbox that I'm not sure I adequately described, but it's been on my mind this week among the end of the preschool era. It's emotional around here! :-)

Let the summer good times begin. I'm READY!!!!